A Post That's Actually About College

So, the acceptance letters are in. (Well, most of them, anyways.) 90% of the high school population has already jumped onto a social media site and posted "______ University! Class of 2018! :)" As I scroll through this endless stream of repetitive statements, I find myself getting stressed out because I'm not 100% positive about where I want to go. 

I didn't manage to get into the schools I really wanted to get into in Massachusetts and really, I was pretty much counting on me getting into at least one of them. I do of course, have back-up plans, but there's no school that I look at and say to myself "Wow. I could really see myself loving going to school here." 

It's nerve-racking, to say the least. Especially since I have to know before May 1st. I guess my advice would be that you can't rely on getting into one particular school, and that you should have back ups that you actually want to go to.  

11 Questions

1. If you had to choose an animal to morph into occasionally (like an Animagus like Sirius Black from the Harry Potter series or a skin-changer like Beorn from The Hobbit) which animal would you choose and why?

A: Probably some type of bird, just so I'd be able to fly. 

2.What is the best piece of life advice you’ve ever received and from whom did you receive said advice?
A: "You can't make everyone happy." - My dad

3.What gadget could you not live without (or at the very least living without it would drastically change the way you live) and why?
A: Definitely my cell phone. I use it on a pretty constant basis. I talk in group chats with my friends, I do my research, I practically live my life on my cell phone. 

4.What Pandora station did you last listen to?
A: Matchbox Twenty Radio

5.Why/how do you use Twitter or other social media outlets?
A: I rarely use twitter, but when I do, it's usually just to talk to my friends and see what they're up to. 

6.Use one song title, book title, lyric, or quote to sum up your 2013 and indicate one that you’d like to use to set the tone for your 2014.
A: What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us. 
- Ralph Waldo Emerson

7.What is one of the greatest things you’ve ever heard a student say?
A: "I don't understand."

8.What is your favorite snack?
A: Cookies

9.What is the last movie you saw in a theater? Also, rate it with your own rating system.
A: "Her" - It was a pretty interesting movie, to say the least. I'd give it like... 3.5 stars

10.Why do birds suddenly appear, every time you are near?
A: Just like me, they'd like to be, close to you. My parents actually used to sing this to me when I was little.

11.If you were going to form a music band, and could choose any non-musicians–factual, fictional, alive, or dead–who would you pick; what role would each person play in the band (including you); what type of music would you play; and what would your band be called?
A: Noelle - Drums, Gianfranco - Piano, Luna - Bass, Sofia - Guitar, Sage - Singer, Ravital - Triangle
Our band would be called Flavor School because that's what my band generator told me to name it. And we'll play really literary deep songs that only intelligent people would understand because Ms.Sackstein requested it. 

My Major

I've been going back and fourth about the sort of major I've wanted to take since I was in the 8th grade. However, I've always known that I've wanted to go into a field that involved helping people. I was originally interested in social work, however, I wanted to broaden my horizons and give myself more options about what specific career I wanted to go into. 

Instead of going into a social work major, I've decided that I'm going to major in psychology. This will allow me to choose from a plethora (yes, I said plethora) of different careers that I'm interested in. 

However, I'm also really concerned that I'm going to get to college, take that major for two years, and then lose interest in it. Two years worth of time wasted. In general, I'm a very indecisive person, and I'm typically pretty unsure of what I want. You can ask literally any one of my friends and they'll tell you the same thing. 

Oh well, no matter what happens I'll at least be able to get away from home and go off on my own. 

Possibility

2014 isn't quite as simple as my other years in high school. This is the year I graduate from high school, and the year that I plan to move away from home and finally live on my own. I know as a 17-year-old white girl I've lived a pretty comfortable and sheltered life. My dad's taken care of me, for the most part. Between laundry, keeping a roof over head, providing me with food, and providing me with emotional support, the only thing I've really done on my own is get a job.

This job was the first taste of real freedom and responsibility that I had ever gotten, and I can honestly say that I'm ready for more. I genuinely feel as though I'm ready to move on with my life and that I have the ability to live on my own. I'm not quite sure what's going to happen within the next nine months, but I think I'm ready for it.

That's why all I see is possibility. The possibility for growth, the possibility to mature and the possibility to learn how to be my own person. I think that's what everyone needs, especially at this stage in their lives. 

I mean, of course I'm scared, but that's what comes with new experiences. Anything that's going to make a real change or become a real accomplishment is genuinely terrifying at first. Really though, I'm more afraid of letting the fear get to me to the point where I let myself get held back from where I actually want to be.

I can't wait to look back at this post in nine months and just completely reevaluate everything I just said.